goodbye tumblr

as if things couldn;t get any worse..

I honestly could not get any more annoying…

I sent Cole like 20+ texts before I just sent 24 more texts apologizing for everything I really am sorry for. 

I am so fucking annoying. He’s probably gonna be pissed… :c

I dont care what you think, i’m not a lousy snobby bitch

sarahkhinsからの質問: Dear, please don't kill yourself or even make an attempt. I know we don't know each other well or even at all, so it might seem like bullshit, but it would make me horribly upset to see you take your life, and I'm sure there are tons of others too who would be upset as well. Things do get tough, and I won't pry or ask anything personal, but I've been there and wanted to die more than you know, but in the end, conquering life is worth it.

It’s okay, I don’t mind speaking about my personal issues with people.

I keep forgetting that of course people would miss me and care about me. Right now I feel as though Cole doesn’t care for me or love me, but maybe it’s just all in my damn head. I don’t enjoy angering him as often as I do, and if he sees this I hope he realizes I’m not trying to piss him off when I say things like this. :c

I’ve been dealing with these suicidal thoughts and shit since I was 11 or so, I know how it is as well. I hate feeling like this, but sometimes it seems like there’s no hope and I should give up. ._.” 

I just have to remember people do love and care, and even if Cole doesn’t care for me or love me, there are others that do… Even if it hurts, because although I want him out of everyone to care the most, I can’t depend on that feeling. I know that he cares for me, and I’m doubting everything right now… But if it ever ends up like that I have to remember what I’m writing right now.